Today marks my first full day on HRT. This has been a long time coming and it feels strange that it is finally happening. Anxiety about the future of this country and my place in it aside, it seems apropos to start journaling my experiences for so long as it feels appropriate or beneficial. So let me start this bad boy off.

Day 1 and 2 of HRT. Estrodial 4mg Spiro 100mg.

The first effect, which I am attributing purely to placebo but which still feels important, is a deep sense of relief. Less from taking estrogen, honestly. When I first swallowed the anti-androgen this sense of calm came over me. To put it in words, it was the knowledge that testosterone was no longer the primary driving factor inside me. That I’m finally tamping it down and stopping its rampaging effects on my body. I’m well past the point of peek hormonal influence physiologically but the feeling remains all the same.

As expected, there are no physical changes to speak of, nor do I expect there to be for some time yet. But that is all fine with me. I’m very aware and glad of this being a long term process rather than an overnight one. This is a long haul and I’ve already hauled myself this far. I feel confident that my life is going to improve so much as I can control it from here on.